THE UNTOLD STORY
"Ohh wow u have such a humorous nature! "... "u make me smile and laugh".... U laugh so much"..... U talk so much.... How? "...... Yes!! .. These are the sentence i get to hear whenever i am around people i feel happy with.. Ohhh wait happy???? No no no thats only what my face says... But nobody could ever get to the heart... And has tried to know the reason behind the fake happiness on my face...and here begins the untold story of my life.......
I wish i could find a person with whom i can just cry out at any point of my life... Yes i seem strong to everybody... Yess everyone thinks i am happy just coz i am childish and laughs at the tiniest thing in my life... But that does not mean i am strong and even in the worst of situations... There are times when i need someone to understand my pains my sorrows and my situation even if i am not able to utter a word.... There are times during which i have given up... But the people who think i am strong,i am happy and most importantly i am ok.. Never come to know what my heart goes through... I wish there could be some machine which could just pull my sorrows out of my life.... Beause its not the first time life is breaking me down but n no. Of times... I have felt broken i have felt ignored, but people who make me feel so do not even get to know about it..... Times change, people change but what remains constant is the ignorance i get from people even after giving my 100% to everything in their lives....i wish i could find a place to go and scribble whtever my heart goes through, but sadly there is no such place.... I wish i could run away from this place but then there is no safe place like home, but wht to do at home... Tell my parents what i am going through.?...how can i tell the same mother who gave me birth that i dont wanna live now.... I dont wanna face the world..... Yes i am tired.... Yes i feel annoyed..... But where to go.... Where to hide.... Where to find a shelter..... Seeing people with indifferent attitude makes me unhappy... Yess it makes me feel unwanted.... And thats wht people fail to understand.... Theres no one forever in ur life... Whtever it is, it is coz of u and ur selfishness to achieve wht u want..... I thought i will not give up so soon.... But life has played a lot with me now and there is no possibility of me getting up again and standing on my own now.... I am broken, i am shattered, i have given up, i have given up....
People say cry to the fullest because that will lessen ur pain..... I cried... I also cried...... But did it affect the people hurting me... Did they even come to know tht i gave my time in crying over things which atleast matter to me and not to them..... People say i talk a lot.... I share things with people a lot..... But i dont know when will people realize that speaking a lot helps me forget what my heart forces my brain to think and sharing things gives me the assurance that even though the listener would turn out to be fake in the end, atleast i had someone to listen to my feelings even when some "fake" people refused to give me "fake" support!...... I wanna run... I wanna keep silent because this story is only known to u and me now but to the people to whom it is dedicated, it still remains an UNTOLD STORY!!!!
"Ohh wow u have such a humorous nature! "... "u make me smile and laugh".... U laugh so much"..... U talk so much.... How? "...... Yes!! .. These are the sentence i get to hear whenever i am around people i feel happy with.. Ohhh wait happy???? No no no thats only what my face says... But nobody could ever get to the heart... And has tried to know the reason behind the fake happiness on my face...and here begins the untold story of my life.......
I wish i could find a person with whom i can just cry out at any point of my life... Yes i seem strong to everybody... Yess everyone thinks i am happy just coz i am childish and laughs at the tiniest thing in my life... But that does not mean i am strong and even in the worst of situations... There are times when i need someone to understand my pains my sorrows and my situation even if i am not able to utter a word.... There are times during which i have given up... But the people who think i am strong,i am happy and most importantly i am ok.. Never come to know what my heart goes through... I wish there could be some machine which could just pull my sorrows out of my life.... Beause its not the first time life is breaking me down but n no. Of times... I have felt broken i have felt ignored, but people who make me feel so do not even get to know about it..... Times change, people change but what remains constant is the ignorance i get from people even after giving my 100% to everything in their lives....i wish i could find a place to go and scribble whtever my heart goes through, but sadly there is no such place.... I wish i could run away from this place but then there is no safe place like home, but wht to do at home... Tell my parents what i am going through.?...how can i tell the same mother who gave me birth that i dont wanna live now.... I dont wanna face the world..... Yes i am tired.... Yes i feel annoyed..... But where to go.... Where to hide.... Where to find a shelter..... Seeing people with indifferent attitude makes me unhappy... Yess it makes me feel unwanted.... And thats wht people fail to understand.... Theres no one forever in ur life... Whtever it is, it is coz of u and ur selfishness to achieve wht u want..... I thought i will not give up so soon.... But life has played a lot with me now and there is no possibility of me getting up again and standing on my own now.... I am broken, i am shattered, i have given up, i have given up....
People say cry to the fullest because that will lessen ur pain..... I cried... I also cried...... But did it affect the people hurting me... Did they even come to know tht i gave my time in crying over things which atleast matter to me and not to them..... People say i talk a lot.... I share things with people a lot..... But i dont know when will people realize that speaking a lot helps me forget what my heart forces my brain to think and sharing things gives me the assurance that even though the listener would turn out to be fake in the end, atleast i had someone to listen to my feelings even when some "fake" people refused to give me "fake" support!...... I wanna run... I wanna keep silent because this story is only known to u and me now but to the people to whom it is dedicated, it still remains an UNTOLD STORY!!!!
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