FOR ONCE LISTEN TO ME! 

I QUIT! , I GIVE UP! , I WANNA RUN!,THE SITUATIONS FRUSTRATE ME!... i wish i could find words which could define how frustrated i am.... These words come to my lips but remain unsaid just coz there is nobody who will even understand a bit of it... Not even my own parents....they think i am all cool and calm just coz i don't say anything... And think i am too aggressive when these words cannot remain unsaid.... Is Belonging to a middle class family so difficult..... So many financial problems.... So many issues.... There have been n no.of disputes regarding what should i wear....and this dispute gets so prolonged that even if we plan to go out, the tension between my mother and me rages so high that she is forced to cancel the plan and sit at home.. And all this coz of just one person...... ME!!... everytime they make me feel disgusted, they make me feel as if every bloody thing happening in the house is just coz of me..... Have they ever tried to ask wht am i even going through.... All the time they are on their mobile phones and whenever i use it.... It troubles them as if.... For the past one hour of my life i have been stuck to it... They may not use it every time but whenever they are free they use it... And tell me that i don't share anything when the actual thing is with whom to share... And when i share it with my friends they have the biggest problem.... Never have they tried to ask me what has happened... And thats the reason... I feel so aggressive and angry at myself.... That i feel to destroy everything..... Destroy myself.... So that the day i am not there.... Atleast the people around me would feel my absence but then they can only regret..... Coz then i will not come back.... My words will remain unsaid..... Everybody tries to put the blame on me as if.... I am doing it intentionally so that nobody is happy.... I mean i wish... My feelings, my thoughts could reach to u... And then i think u will realize.... What i go through..... I have given up.... I have actually given up......coz now i just wanna quit.... There is so much to say... That even w

Now when i am typing these words they are not coming out properly.... Coz they are still scared that should the other person reading this laughs at it... It would shatter me into pieces.... Coz there is still nobody who can understand even a single bit of my emotions... Its really sad to be the only child.. Coz in any dispute, my father is always supporting my mother....but there is nobody to whom i can express my words, my feelings, what i actually meant.... And what u people are understanding..... My mother always curses me....always claims me to be a curse for her... WHY????... WHAT IS MY FAULT..??,WHAT IS THAT I HAVE DONE????.... WHY ONLY ME????... just coz i dont wear clothes according to her wish.. Just coz i am aggressive.... Just coz i answer back..... Just coz i am rude and sarcastic sometimes..... Or just coz i have grown up..... I need these answers..... I feel stuck here... I feel suffocated.... I want to run away from this place.... My father is always there to wipe her tears off.... But what about me....who is there for me.... Who will wipe my tears...... Is there anybody who will sit with me... Ask me what i actually feel... What is there which has made me so aggressive and so inhuman... I dont think so...... And so rather than expressing my words to someone who i am sure will not understand, i feel to express my feelings by writing coz be it a pen or a keyboard.... They are never gonna ask u wht made u write or r never gonna raise a finger back at me and say that at the end of the day its ur mistake... But would just type what i want them to type...and listen to me without even uttering a word..... In the end.. I just wanna say that I QUIT!