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                   A THING CALLED HEART!  How many times have u faced ignorance? How many times have u seen people behaving indifferently with u? How many times u know the reality but is afraid to utter it, just because u cannot risk what is unlikely to happen for something?....       The answers to all the above questions and yes obviously more... Lie all within something known as HEART!!.... all the ignorance...., the indifferent behavior,.... The reality.... All of these are stored in ur heart.... All u need to do is just accept it and speak out loud for nothing is greater than ur self respect...... This is what people say when u express wht u have got in ur heart..... But do we actually confess it? Do we actually try to face the reality....?.... NO,we do not.... And that is why i am forced to write this blog since even i lack the courage to speak up, for i cannot lose what i have gained in my life...   ...
                  FOR ONCE LISTEN TO ME!  I QUIT! , I GIVE UP! , I WANNA RUN!,THE SITUATIONS FRUSTRATE ME!... i wish i could find words which could define how frustrated i am.... These words come to my lips but remain unsaid just coz there is nobody who will even understand a bit of it... Not even my own parents....they think i am all cool and calm just coz i don't say anything... And think i am too aggressive when these words cannot remain unsaid.... Is Belonging to a middle class family so difficult..... So many financial problems.... So many issues.... There have been n no.of disputes regarding what should i wear....and this dispute gets so prolonged that even if we plan to go out, the tension between my mother and me rages so high that she is forced to cancel the plan and sit at home.. And all this coz of just one person...... ME!!... everytime they make me feel disgusted, they make me feel as if every bloody thing happening in th...
                        HEARTLESS I wasn't sure of what was going through. Did i make a mistake or really something else was disturbing you. I wanted to ask you, but u chose to keep silent. I wanted to read your silence but u chose to keep me away. I thought my presence was making you stronger but little did i know that my presence was the only thing which was making you weaker day by day.It was because of my presence that you wanted to quit your life, my presence left you in a guilt which couldn't help you do what you wanted to do. Your harsh words didn't hurt me, but even after saying those words when you still held your head high with pride, denying to agree what you did was wrong hurt more. Your sudden change in behavior hit me like a thunder bolt, words full of disrespect and ignorance, it pierced like a knife and my heart shed tears but you didn't even want to see them. I kept wondering was it only me who had to struggl...
               I WISH I COULD TELL YOU!  This blog is dedicated to one of the most special person in my life.... I hope u find it connective too....      It had been more than two days that we had had no conversation... And i already started feeling low.... I wish i could tell him anyhow what it feels without him.... Only two days and Life seemed colorless.... Just the way the dark clouds hide the sun from spreading its mighty Rays during rain and thunder... His absence gave me the exact feeling.. When even after picking up my phone i could see no message from him.... I wish i could tell him... How he is the reason for why i started laughing so much, why i started loving myself so much, why i started being myself.... Because it was just him who knew me in and out... Who knew my words even when i didn't utter them, he who knew every emotion i went through, he who cared even when he had a storm raging in his own life.. How he ...
                          A THIRD PERSON!  We all know about  two types of people we have within us... One which we show to the outside world and the other which may or may not come out in front of people known to us.... But this is the point when one needs to acknowledge the third person hidden in our souls...        We all have tht one person inside us which asks us always to be wht we r and not wht the world makes out of us.... There is still a person, a third person inside us which forces us to be childish even when the situation seems heated..asks us to be mature just to show them that... "no wait, u cannot make a fool out of me"even when maturity has no roof under our souls .... There is a person which wants to run away giving up on all worldly things specially what brings us down.... It is the third person which cries at nights when people for whom these hearts cry out, sleep unaware...
                       THE UNTOLD STORY "Ohh wow u have such a humorous nature! "... "u make me smile and laugh".... U laugh so much"..... U talk so much.... How? "......  Yes!! .. These are the sentence i get to hear whenever i am around people i feel happy with.. Ohhh wait happy???? No no no thats only what my face says... But nobody could ever get to the heart... And has tried to know the reason behind the fake happiness on my face...and here begins the untold story of my life.......          I wish i could find a person with whom i can just cry out at any point of my life... Yes i seem strong to everybody... Yess everyone thinks i am happy just coz i am childish and laughs at the tiniest thing in my life... But that does not mean i am strong and even in the worst of situations... There are times when i need someone to understand my pains my sorrows and my situation even if i am not able to ...